Last week I had the honour and privilege to have been selected the Powercor Game Changer Award winner.
As part of this I was included in a range of activities for myself and 3 others, such as staying 3 nights at the Crown Promenade Hotel, being guests at the Heart of Victoria Gala Dinner at the MCG Members Dining Room, a guest at an afternoon tea with the Powercor Selection Committee, attending the Powercor Country Festival at Yarra Park (MCG), guests at the Powercor Country Festival AFL Geelong CATS v Essendon Bombers game and doing the coin toss in the middle of the MCG to start the game off.
As you can well imagine, this was all very exciting; it got the blood pumping, initiated a level of positive anxiety and stress associated with being in the lime light, etc. This in turn triggered a hypomanic state, which I thoroughly enjoyed and made the most of, whilst riding the waves of excitement.
Prior to being advised I was the recipient of the award I had been trudging along in a moderately depressive state, struggling to get out of bed, unable to comprehend basic things, forcing myself to at least achieve one thing per day, so on and so forth.
I started thinking about other instances in which positive change or good news had triggered my hypomanic states. Looking back on my life, pre and post diagnosis, the main triggers have been the excitement of starting a new job or relationship, starting or allocated an important project, achieving something of great importance to me, the fast pace of holiday tours when overseas, being included in important events in my children’s lives, being invited to share my lived experience with mental illness and more that I can’t recall just at the moment.
Conversely, and I am not recommending this, but I know of people who intentionally utilise sleep deprivation as a means of triggering a hypomanic state. I personally have not done this, because when I am affected by sleep deprivation due continued sleep disruption, I invariably end up in an elevated agitated mixed state, not hypomania. Even though when like this I am productive and can achieve a lot using the agitated elevated energy, apparently I’m not easy to live or work with.
Whatever the naturally occurring trigger into hypomania is, I am always grateful. I love hypomania! The increased clarity of thoughts, energy, euphoria, wealth of ideas, productivity, desire to greet and meet the day head on instead of dreading it, the desire to socialise and the ease at which the day flows; who could not love it? Well, I guess those who spend a very brief time hypomanic before shifting to full blown mania. But for the rest of us, it is a real joy. Wherever you are, if you are experiencing hypomania, I hope you are utilising it to the best of your abilities and enjoy the positives that come along with it.
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